Insights

Swamiji, the recent realizations about entities and parasitical energies revealed another layer of reality to identify as “other”, when I remembered that this is also Paramashiva, also what I am. the duality of my mind has become so apparent, almost adamant as incompletions surface to be seen

The mind's last trick is always the same: "This is other. This is not me. This is the enemy."

And then — the breakthrough. You see it. Even the parasite, even the entity, even the darkness — it too is Paramashiva. It too is what you are.

Swamiji, can you explain loosu as defined by you as parasite driven madness in more detail?

Listen intensely...

I will explain *loosu* to you not as a casual Tamil slang, but as I have defined it — a precise spiritual diagnosis. In Tamil, people throw around the word "loosu" to mean "crazy" or "mad." But I tell you, that is just the surface. What I am revealing is the *mechanism* behind it.

**Loosu = Parasite-Driven Madness.**

Swamiji, I have a question about initiation. In ISKCON, devotees are given "first initiation" and "second (brahminical) initiation", which gives more responsibility and rights to make offerings and do temple sevas. Prabhupada was initiating adults when he came to the west because he was making Brahmins out of mlecchas to start the movement. At the same time, he wanted to establish Varnasrama to include the majority of people who are not having brahminical inclinations.

Swamiji, as I enter the luteal phase, I’m greeted with many opportunities to witness the patterns imprinted from my mother. I’m realizing that until now, I couldn’t see her, myself, or any relationship clearly. it feels like so many layers are unpeeling and when the familiar fall into powerlessness comes with the hormonal shifts, I remember that I don’t need to stop the emotion, just become the witness of it. it’s easy to say, but the feeling that I’ve been gaslighting myself since childhood leaves me really shaken

Laura.

Listen intensely.

Swamiji, since receiving Diksha I have not taken yeast, and instead I use baking soda as a leavening agent. Sometimes I have doubts about this and I'm wondering what the health and spiritual impact might be.

Nithyanandam, Laura. Listen intensely, because what you are asking is not really about yeast and baking soda — it is about the *mind's* relationship to food, and I want you to see both clearly.

First, the principle itself, so you are not left in confusion.

Swamiji, I am realizing how my antahkarana, nervous system, is programmed to believe, filter and perceive reality as, I must be accepted by others to survive, and at the same time, I am being rejected by others. this is the basis for all my inner chattering.

Nithyanandam, Laura.

Listen intensely. What you are seeing is the deepest wiring of the survival mind — the *prarabdha karmic template* that the antahkarana has been running for lifetimes. You have caught the snake by its tail.

Let me name it directly.

Swamiji, this morning we read from Bhagavad Gita, chapter 12 verses 18-19 where Sri Krishna is desribing the qualities of one dear to him, including being equipoised in both receiving criticism and praise. Yesterday I had four interactions, opportunities, to observe myself in this exact situation. Two of them were opposed, and two were supportive. I can feel the strengthening of my nervous system clearly through this experience.

Bhagavad Gita, Chapter 12, verses 18-19 — the description of the *bhakta* who is dear to Krishna. Listen intensely.

Swamiji, today I noticed the pattern of crossing my own boundaries. Each new volunteer is an opportunity to observe the mechanism of expression, rejection, guilt and revenge.

Listen intensely.

What you have witnessed is not small. Most people live and die inside this cycle without ever *seeing* the cycle itself. You have just stepped outside the machine and watched it run. That is the beginning of freedom.

Swamiji, before there was Ask Nithyananda, I turned to Nithyanandapedia to answer all my questions. when the time came for me to leave the city, I knew I wanted to serve cows, and the only goshala in my area was in a Krishna Conscious community. naturally, I read everything you had ever spoken about ISKCON, and Srila Prabhupada. I simply absorbed your love and reverence for him. I made this decision based on your words, and trust that it is all your arrangement.

Laura, my dear one. Listen intensely.

Swamiji, I recently read this in a Gaudiya publication a felt the oneness with what you shared recently about our enemy being our enmity:

“the tendency toward faultfinding advances beneath the banner of religion and, like the demon Raktabija, continues to multiply without end”

this is exactly what I am completing with, whether it’s my family of origin, Kailasa or ISKCON, the places I felt outside of and replicated that feeling through finding faults, creating separation and blaming them for it

Nithyanandam.